Day 2: Fairytale
Sep 2, 2010, 11:26 PM
fly, bubble, happy, wish by 오픈스킨
Many things happened today. Once again, spontaneous events occurred. Because it was 알빈의 생일 today, Sora and I "visited" him at his school. 언니 greeted him Happy Birthday, it was a moment of happiness. I remember, when I use to be so excited of growing up. But suddenly, just lately, I don't want to grow up. I want to stay as a child forever. I'm scared of growing up.
I know why I've been having this heavy feeling in my chest. I finally found the reason. It wasn't because I was falling for him. It was because I began to fear this curse. It had haunted me my whole life, I hated it, despised it, yet I never feared it, I was never scared of it. Until now. I never knew this day would come, the day I would cry about growing up, the day I cry about my 생일. Even though I hated it so much, I always told myself not to cry over it. Yet, I am now.
I don't want to grow up. But I know I have to. I can't stay like this.
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