I really have no clue what I'm doing to myself. I haven't been sleeping, I'm cutting down on food, and have been wanting to keep a lot to myself lately. So, if I still see that shrink I once had, she would totally tell me this is a very unhealthy state. Gawd, I'm so glad she's gone, I hate reporting to her every week. Anyhow, it is now 12:40am, and no I am not going to sleep yet. Besides, I don't feel tired + I have to learn all this shit that missed....'cause I've been really out of it lately, so I skipped all my classes last week. That was horrible. Sometimes, I really wish I can stop moving forward, and just freeze right now, but I know I can't. I want more time to think about a lot of things, but I don't have it, I can't have it either. I just have to deal with what I have right now, and keep hoping that I'll have more of it in the future. I think I"m gonna be like this for a while, I need time to think, I don't wanna see anyone at all. I don't wanna talk to anyone at all.
But right now, what's pissing me off is this scab on my hand... which is now bleeding, okay maybe it was a bad idea to pick on it. Whatever, it'll heal sometime. Anywho, I haven't heard from Luna in a while, hopefully her drinking party goes well on Saturday. I haven't really hung out with Sora since Saturday and Sunday, and I'm most likely not going to for a long while. I haven't been thinking alone lately, which bothers me, 'cause usually I talk to myself, trying to figure things out. Yes, I may sound like a total lunatic, but whatever, I like talking to myself, it's almost like having a twin. :3 *yawn* Damn, I'm getting tired, but I have to read this whole section gahhhh!!! Well, I'm gonna continue studying, so farewell~ for now~
I really have no clue what I'm doing to myself. I haven't been sleeping, I'm cutting down on food, and have been wanting to keep a lot to myself lately. So, if I still see that shrink I once had, she would totally tell me this is a very unhealthy state. Gawd, I'm so glad she's gone, I hate reporting to her every week. Anyhow, it is now 12:40am, and no I am not going to sleep yet. Besides, I don't feel tired + I have to learn all this shit that missed....'cause I've been really out of it lately, so I skipped all my classes last week. That was horrible. Sometimes, I really wish I can stop moving forward, and just freeze right now, but I know I can't. I want more time to think about a lot of things, but I don't have it, I can't have it either. I just have to deal with what I have right now, and keep hoping that I'll have more of it in the future. I think I"m gonna be like this for a while, I need time to think, I don't wanna see anyone at all. I don't wanna talk to anyone at all.
But right now, what's pissing me off is this scab on my hand... which is now bleeding, okay maybe it was a bad idea to pick on it. Whatever, it'll heal sometime. Anywho, I haven't heard from Luna in a while, hopefully her drinking party goes well on Saturday. I haven't really hung out with Sora since Saturday and Sunday, and I'm most likely not going to for a long while. I haven't been thinking alone lately, which bothers me, 'cause usually I talk to myself, trying to figure things out. Yes, I may sound like a total lunatic, but whatever, I like talking to myself, it's almost like having a twin. :3 *yawn* Damn, I'm getting tired, but I have to read this whole section gahhhh!!! Well, I'm gonna continue studying, so farewell~ for now~
