These words repeat in my head multiple times, Start over. How many times have I asked for a "second chance?" Too many times. I keep telling myself, I will not make the same mistake twice. I guess I was wrong. I keep telling myself, I will not be destroyed by the same hands as before. Wrong again. The moment I decided to live, I said, I will not fall ever again. I will not force a smile, but I will smile because I am happy. I will not stop running until I reach the end. I will forget the past. Out of all of those promises to myself, not a single one was fulfilled. Instead, I placed myself in the situation I was in two years ago. Every breath I take, the memories burn my lungs. The memories stabs my heart. The memories still lingers, killing me softly. The misery I possess, I simply cannot explain, But I would like to ask you to do me one favour, Don't try to catch me. I want to get hurt. I want to cry. I want to endure it by myself. I want to learn to stand by myself. I want to start over without anyone's help.
These words repeat in my head multiple times, Start over. How many times have I asked for a "second chance?" Too many times. I keep telling myself, I will not make the same mistake twice. I guess I was wrong. I keep telling myself, I will not be destroyed by the same hands as before. Wrong again. The moment I decided to live, I said, I will not fall ever again. I will not force a smile, but I will smile because I am happy. I will not stop running until I reach the end. I will forget the past. Out of all of those promises to myself, not a single one was fulfilled. Instead, I placed myself in the situation I was in two years ago. Every breath I take, the memories burn my lungs. The memories stabs my heart. The memories still lingers, killing me softly. The misery I possess, I simply cannot explain, But I would like to ask you to do me one favour, Don't try to catch me. I want to get hurt. I want to cry. I want to endure it by myself. I want to learn to stand by myself. I want to start over without anyone's help.
